My Infamous Affair

That burning taste in the mouth

That wretched soul full of fear

I live in despair, my body is not a sanctuary anymore

Cold sleepless nights, goosebumps up my sleeve

I lay in the pit of misery, I drank the poison neat 

Too weak to walk, too weak to talk

Too scared to let go

Even my shadows mock me now

Your words haunt me now

Sucked out of liveliness

I hear cries of my forgotten dreams, my passions run out of fuel, I've lost the willingness to live

You're not what I imagined

You're not sunshine, flowers and snow

You're deadly, dark rainforest

And I'm lost in the echos 

Echos of your screams

Screams that hurt my ears

You clung on to my life

My insecurities and my fears

I loathe the sight of you, I loathe those nights of tears

Silence has been kept

My infamous affair.

My infamous affair.

My beloved, my inamorato

forgive me, for I can no longer linger 

in the dark pit of misery

that you've compelled me to live in

I shall rise now, I shall rise from the dead corpse of my tormented soul 

I shall bathe myself with glitters and gold

I shall live, I shall fly

For there are better ways to die

Than in your arms

I will not return anymore

I will not return anymore